August 23, 2012


I'm feeling under the weather again. There is so much ambiguity right now. I wish I was one of those people that are constantly "chill". I've always assume those people are just oblivious, or, just have a really good shrink?

I don't need to drive a car that cost more than university tuition. I don't want to marry rich and be a catty housewife. I don't need to mingle at social functions with people could care less to justify my existence.

I just want to feel safe. I want to be with genuine people, not ones who always want something or feel the need to compare. I'm happy with my paychecks, but more would be nice... I want to stop waking up at 7:30am on weekends but wake up at 7:30am on weekdays. I want to stop sweating like a mofo on the treadmill. And as of late, I really just want to fall for someone who also falls for me, treat me as their priority as I do to them.

For now, I'm taking the day off and making steak tonight. It'll be good.