June 27, 2013

Clouded Judgements


I wish I can change my feelings. Feelings are intangible monsters that can overtake our belief in and cloud our logic. I probably would have accomplished more if I wasn’t so busy dealing with my feelings. 

I wish I am less conscious when talking about myself. I wish I can senselessly blab about me and inflate my accomplishments like I’m the most amazing person when I need to. Then maybe more opportunities would be presented to me.

I wish I can just take what I need from others. I wish I could take advantage of situations where I take advantage of the other person even if they aren’t aware. Then I would have more time and resources to do what I want to do.

I wish I can quantify everything by a price. Quantifying decisions would make life so much easier.

Alas, it is true that the lack of money can make you unsatisfied, money alone can’t satisfy you. I had a taste of it not too long ago and I was freaking miserable.

But I can’t help how I feel and how I react. And some things I do are unexplainable to others but they make sense to me. Or maybe these are things I need to learn. I don’t know.