October 21, 2013

Uncontrollable



{Photos by Alyssa; wearing Forever 21 plaid pants, Gap shirt, Halston Heritage clutch, Boohoo heels}

We are made of undefinable compilation of our experiences, and some things are not meant to be explained.

You can come up with a list of reasons to do something and a list of reasons to not do the same thing. But the heart knows what it want. We don't have to 'have' reasons why. We don't need reasons why we suddenly decide to move, and we don't need reasons why we change jobs. This is not an excuse to be irresponsible. I'm just saying that nobody knows what's best for you than you and nobody knows what you want more than you. It's a waste to decide what you should and shouldn't do base on standard social convention. You have to trust your heart.

You can spend the rest of your life with someone who you have reasons to be with, whether it is because of their wealth, status or physical appearance. But that is not love. They don't light you up inside. And the more intimately you know them, the more flaws you will see. The more flaws you see, the more reasons to not be with them. That's why marriages fail. Love is choosing to be with someone and their flaws. Love is accepting their darkness and defying the impulse to jump ship.

Similarly, you don't have to have reasons why you're walking away and you shouldn't have to explain why you haven't forgiven someone. We all have an unrecoverable breaking point. And that is okay.

I shouldn't have to have reasons why I hang out with you, I shouldn't have to have reasons why you are my friend, and I definintely shouldn't have reasons why I love you. I just feel it. And hope you feel the same too.